My fabulous friend,Cappy Hotchkiss , is a brilliant wedding photographer. I was lucky enough to go along with her to Cape Cod as her assistant to shoot a wedding. Here are some from my perspective.
July 28, 2010
July 22, 2010
July 20, 2010
We are so sad. We keep listening for the sound of his claws on the wood floor. He died right before a big thunderstorm yesterday. He was very afraid of thunder. We thought that maybe the heavens had waited for him to die so as not to scare him and then they shed giant rain tears for the loss of him. Little J took it well at first and then, when night time came he got very upset. We brought in his stuffed animals, doggie and kitty, because he wanted them to know why he was so upset. He thanked me after I told them. Then he realized that if the dog could die , then I could die too. He cried very hard because he said he would miss me so much if I were to die. And then , of course, I cried too. We fell asleep together. Our family is turned upside down. We keep looking for a way out of the sadness but there is no way. Ice cream helps. We've buried him in the back yard so we can visit him if we need too.
July 14, 2010
Forgive the long absence. Our dog has recently been diagnosed with degenerative arthritis. It's been a bit crazy around here. He can barely walk. He can't go up and down stairs. He only eats from my hand. He's in a lot of pain and Big j and I are trying to be ok with letting him go. It's very hard. I'm trying to tell myself that's it's ok for him to go. That his work here is done. My kooky neighbor sent pictures of him to her dog whisperer healer. The lady said , from the picture, "He is a tired guy. Doesn't want to give in. Family. One person in particular may need to let go a bit more. " Part of me wants to laugh it off because , yeah, he's tired! But she is also right, it's hard to let go. I guess we're waiting for him to let us know that he's ready. In the meantime, someone is always with him. Big J sleeps next to him on the floor, on the couch, carrying him up and down stairs. He's horribly sad.